woohoo~!
i received my DBSK posters~!
i mean AUTOGRAPHED ONES!!!! LOL!

oh man! i love the autographed rising sun DVD!!

shall blog l8r~
gg to watch pirates 2~~
yoochunnie!!! junsu!!
lalala~! listening to fly to the sky~

today is another happy day~~
i also dunnoe why~~ jus very happy~! LOL!

went back to school, still very tired~
went to long john with ky and shu after sch..
was chatting for like.. 3 hours there?? i think the ppl there will wan to kill us liao.
really love the both of them!! :D

pris saw some LIGHT and L's plushie at tm~!LOL! muz go see sometime!

tml~! gg to meet huixin~! super happy!!! cuz we are getting DBSK autographed posters!!!!
huixin! rmb check with that gal abt the o album! thanks!
though quite sad cuz i got to part with my 100+++
shall go walk walk after that!!!

darling's bdae coming so soon~! hahahah~!
off to bathe and watch simin's pirates!
i'm so happy!!!
anyhow do the dumb test.. and i win pris!!
not trying to haolian~
but pris is SMART!! and i'm SMART-er!!!



go ahead and try BUT dun cheat!!
i jus finished watching BLEACH eps 3 i think.
a bit lag~
BUT it's nice!!!!
and ichigo is shuai~! :D

nowadays i can be easily touched by those shows that have got to do with death.
also dunnoe why.

and.. i'm jealous of those with elder brother, as in your REAL one.
the gal in the show has one. i think he treats her real well.
i reckon most of the brothers are.
at least yoochun is! LOL!

oh ya!
i was sms-ing yanshan ytd! hahaha~!

should i change blogsong to lovin' u ..?
woohoo~!
woolala~!
i'm so happy!!!!! lalalala~!

though i didn get to get my 8gb v plus mp3 still, thanks mao!!
and liyun and edna who woke up early to pei me go all the way to jurong east!!!:D


though i think the mp3 i get doesnt look very nice, it's still pretty good!!!
i'm beginning to like it!!! LOL!
it's a new model with speakers!!! now gg to put songs, photos, videos in to become a "DBSK mp3"!!! hahaha~!

went IMM after walking around at jurong east.
mao got his psp *jealous*, liyun got her albums.. and.. me and edna..
GOT OUR RISING SUN CONCERT DVD AND FIVE IN THE BLACK ALBUM!!!!!

LOL! i'm so happy~! hahaha~!
i so gonna swear i gg to buy STEP BY STEP and WINTER SMTOWN and HEART, MIND AND SOUL next wk!!
buy finish all and make myself feel better!

oh~! ky.. welcome back!! :D

saranghae, micky yoochun and xiah junsu!!
lovin' u!!!
if i'm not wrong, ytd was some fanily-eat-tgt day.

during sch assembly ytd, principal got say and sis say she came back early bcuz company said the same thing!!
how sweet~!
if everyday also lidat and everyone goes home ealy, isn't that good! :D

from yashimanman
a quote from kang ho dong i think..

Because God cant be everywhere at once, He created mothers.

mummy, saranghae!!!

and the part where yoochunnie cries nv fail to influence to make me cry too. :(

ytd went to meet edna after sch, since my mum not free to attend the meet-parents session.

and i love our VP!!! *kiss* LOL!
she's super nice~!

was walking around and went to polyclinic cuz she wanna get a mc.
went back home and showed edna dbsk videos!! laughing our heads off~!
*june artist photo of the month can be pre-order now!!~ yipee~!*

i jus get ps!! :( cuz i woke up too late then they left w/o me to watch pirates! argh~!

tml gg creative warehouse sale~!
i muz grab the first 30 units of creative zen v plus!! wish me luck!! only 200 bucks!!!
but it's at jurong!!! FAR!!!




doesn't he look man? he IS man!! LOL!
he really dances well~! yunho is no.3!!







but my favourites are still them.. !!



it's 02.03 and i hvn eat my breakfast!!
9 days to..
darling yoochun's birthday!!! :D
was super pissed.
not shuang i get chosen to meet vp can?
tmd. give me a better reason than luck lah.
super bu shuang de loh. like i fucking dun deserve it.
ps by edna cuz evon got urgent stuff.
ps by pris cuz she needs to go meet someone.


still love regina most.
feeling better after i went to pierce a earhole.
regina super on. she pierce also!
after watching yoochunnie! and junsu!


tml dun feel like gg chinese painting.
but anyway also cant go. nid to meet huixin and her fren, jiaqi~

bye~


sth wenting made for jkpoppy~! she's one i know at mdc! LOL!
quite pretty ya~

saw huixin's blog.. lovin u MV!!! super nice!! i love the song man!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHA~! thanks pris for the link too!!! :D
really damn pissed with teoliyun jus now cuz she say my DBSK!!! *i'm okay le!*
i also stunned that i got so angry when she say DBSK sia~
but anyway, fuck off if you wan say anything negative about them. if not i will bite you! :B LOL!

tml no criterion workshop! yipee~!
it means gg home early!!! :D

saw this at huixin's blog.. so credits to her! LOL!

Yucheon & YuHwan (yucheon=yoochun!)

the words is [] is what the person who translated was saying.

-And ever since then you returned to the bright/cheery Yucheon?

"Yes. But, Dad and Mom came home late everyday,
there were many instances when they returned after we fell asleep.
There were reasons like that. Certainly, my loneliness didn't completely vanish....
But because my brother is five years younger,
I felt like if I started sniffling even, he would probably follow along and cry too,
so in front of him, I made it a priority to stay bright and energetic.
Mentally, the hardest time was probably junior high
You think about it now, and you'd say it's a phase in ones life that everyone goes through, 'puberty'
It was 7th grade [could be eighth, i don't know if he's going by Korean or American] in which the situation and circumstances were the primal causes for me secluding myself and closing my heart to others
Honestly, I didn't want to talk to ANYONE, and at that time, I just listened to music only non-stop.
And that state continued on to around Sophomore year [again, could be Junior]
Anyway, I thought that if I didn't do anything then I'd keep thinking weird thoughts [i think he's implying thoughts of abandonment or hurting himself in whatever way... because it's really ambiguous the way he says 'weird thoughts']
so upon entering high school, firstly i began various part-time jobs.
At that time, our family wasn't exactly 'wealthy'
i was determined if not anything to prevent my brother from being in similar circumstances.
Whatever it was that my brother needed, I provided them with the money from my part-time jobs, so that he'd endure no discomfort/inconveniences.
I often picked him up at school too. Truthfully, I might've been doing the things
that you'd most likely want/expect from your parents.
I gave him all the love and affection without restraint, and perhaps through that
the two of us were able to escape from that lonely mindset.
And so even now, he and I have a really good relationship."

Arena37. Special (Yucheon solo interview)

[Letter] A letter you wrote that remains in your memory

Yucheon- There are many. When I was in America, around 8th grade, I wrote a Christmas letter to my brother.
That was the first time I gave him allowance too.

What did you write in the letter?

Yucheon- hm... "Be strong" and "Merry Christmas, things like that
[Be strong is an expression that literally means give/put forth strength but roughly translates into be strong, endure..etc]

Was your brother happy?

Yucheon- yes, he said that he was thankful.

We are Curious DBSG
While you were crying at the MKMF Awards, what were you thinking about?

I thought of my younger brother YuHwan and my parents the most.
I cried a lot but if I were to pinpoint what it was that I thought of the most, it would be family. YuHwan and I both didn't speak much. But unlike himself, once when I was in LA for a show, I watched him getting closer with the other members and start talking more and it made me really happy.
But that day, we were on the bed talking with our father in the hotel room and suddenly YuHwan started crying really sorrowfully, for over an hour and he fell asleep crying like that.
It was then when I really wanted to look out for him more.
He's my one and only brother.
And just the image of me unable to care for him, things like that was heartbreaking/frustrating [both meanings conveyed in the Korean word used here].

[okay now here he says something that's kind of vague and because it's in the text I can't really differentiate which one he's saying but i'll provide both options]
Of course, YuHwan doesn't really say these things [things meaning what Yucheon feels he couldn't do for YuHwan]
OR
Of course, YuHwan isn't all that good to me either [basically something like, YuHwan isn't perfect either... but not in a bitter way... just matter of factly]
[end of ambiguous translation]

But still, being the older brother, I felt I should provided even that one thing other older brothers would've provided. Things like that made me feel very sorry towards him.

Most valuable possession
Bracelet. It's been over a year since I've worn this. It's the first present that my brother got for me, this bracelet. I hardly, really, ever have taken it off. Even when I'm shooting the jacket, even if they say I absolutely can't because it doesn't fit the concept, then I'd raise it all the way up here [probably points somewhere up his armslength] and tape it there, so that it won't come down. To that extent, I did my best to never take it off. The bracelet from my brother, his first present to me.
things he's said from his "Thanks To"s

1st Storybook

Yuhwan...
I'm always praying for you.
Be faithful to God.
okie? [actually in English]

2nd Storybook

The person I love first and foremost in all the world, my little brother Yuhwan
I miss you a lot [in English]

4th Storybook

My one and only
family
and...
though he's a pain
someone I love more than anyone else
my YuHwan
[he uses a phrase 'rot my insides' parents say to their kids a lot... things they'd say if they caught you not studying and watching DBSG videos on youtube the whole night, or not listening to them... to more serious things... like getting caught drinking underage... hehe spending all their money]

3rd Album DVD+CD ver.
Lastly, to my little brother YuHwan
who's probably having a very hard time right now
this one's for you...
Yuhwan,
I love you... Be strong!!! [he uses that phrase again]

On YaShimManMan

To YuHwan

YuHwan, it's me [your older brother, hyung]
Firstly, I'm so sorry for not taking care of you well
and leaving you there by yourself.
Occasionally when I'm on the phone with you and I hear you crying...
I act like I'm not in front of you but
my heart aches too.
Really, I'm working hard
so I can be responsible for you [like he's doing his best to fulfill his duty/responsibilites towards him as an older brother, taking care of him..etc]

I love you..........

Japan concert, secret card [???]
Micky#4 To compensate, the presents Micky recently bought for his little brother are, no less than a PC & Mixer set! [to write music]

[right in between here is a picture of Yucheon and Yuhwan at their second concert in Korea]
the fan comments on how warmly YuHwan gazes at Yucheon and that he went to see his brother for all three nights of the concert.

Japan Tour Pamphlet
Something you personally cherish?

The thing I treasure in my heart is my brother's existence.
It is the thing that sustains me.
His existence holds my back. [here, my guess is it stands for that gesture where you kind of rub someone's back? or give them like a firm pat squeeze on the shoulders... iono.. T_T]

original Korean: Bestiz 눈꽃송이 noonggotsongee + soompi
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yuhwan is yoochunnie's bro btw.
he's super duper nice to his brother!!! whom is same age as me.. maybe i'm older than him by a few months! and he's cute to be yoochun's bro! LOL!
really love micky sia! he's a super nice guy!!! :D
had an inspiration today in the toilet. LOL!

i feel so xingfu being able to love yoochunnie and junsu~!
so HAPPY~!

though i dun really know them (as in compared to mrsYUNHO), i love them alot!! :D


ps: i bought kame's young kindaichi DVD jus now~!
lalala~~

i'm a happy gal~~
went to cine ytd for meetup.
think it's so fun! LOL!
sat there for super long and chatted alot.
and i love MAC!!! how i wish she got a lot alot of dbsk posters!!

after that went to walk walk awhile with pris, huixin, liyun, xinci-lookalike!!! tink her name is irene. :D
oh! she loves ANDY!!!

AND AND!!! ANDY (shinhwa one) looks like MICKY YOOCHUN!!!!
okok, not looks~ is.. the feeling they give me!!!
so i like ANDY!!! but i love micky!!! LOL

jus a random YOOCHUN's pic..


i finished my essay~~ lalala~~
pictures speak a thousand words right?
recently too lazy to blog~
see my dbsk may photos!!
and see my darling yoochun and junsu!!! LOL

waiting for my dbsk autographed poster~~

and hope they five of them wil finish the japan tour safely, esp jaejoong!! :D
oh! the lightsticks are pretty~~~ pic up next tym!





I GOT MY VACATION IN MY HAND NOW!!!!
okok~ it's on the table.. if not how i type.
and some dbsk pens (which looks pretty cheap) but i still like!


JOY!!!
post pic tml, tue on wed.!
stupid stuff on tue! haha~!

i'm on a vacation~ lalala~
THERE'S ONE SG FAN OUT THERE SELLING FITB AUTOGRAPHED POSTER BY DBSK!!!

I WAN IT!!!
i'm so gonna buy it, no matter wat!



btw..
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO MUMMY!!!


get lost if you wan to tell me yoochun smokes.
the news is like so old le.
i dun care if he smokes.
feel super okay after pris tells me her hyesung smokes too!!
there's nth to be ashamed of if you smokes! :D
yipee~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

today is a happy day~! lalalala~~~

wake up damn late cuz today is marking day!!! which means no school!!! LOL!
was dl-ing some dbsk videos b4 gg to tpy to eat at crystal jade~!
that's my breakfast and lunch! poor thing!

OH!! did i mention that i watched heroine 6 ytd?! i now i lag lah~!
but inside got yoosu, junjin and brian!!!
i mean at first i dun have any feelings for flytothesky~ but lisa keeps saying they are nice etc (like how she influence me to like dbsk~). watever.
so conclusion is i think brian is quite cute(but not as much as my yoosu!!!)

then mummy went for some foot massage and sis went hair salon.
i was like "shopping" alone at tpy.
and.. I GOT MY TRIANGLE TODAY!!!!!
was thinking of getting FITB but triangle only left 2!! so i grabbed and paid it!!

loittering there and i rmb audrey sms me to say YG mag got dbsk on cover!!!
so i went to buy 2 copies(one for edna~)!! but i dun really like it~ though they are as shuai!!
oh! thanks audrey!!!! she photoshopped yoosu foto!!!! jus received her sms.

*let me get crazy over dbsk first*
went to lisa hse after that. cuz sis and her wan buy beads.
oh! she lent me 2 flytothesky to rip~
walk walk walk in tm and i hvn eat my dinner!!! until now~

come home.. watched heroine 6 with everyone. then jie was like saying junsu..
"eee!! his neck so short! not shuai!" oh my tian!!
i'm like gg crazy! LOL!
BUT..
steven(her bf) jus called her and said..
HE GOT MY VACATION SINGLE FROM KOREA!!!!
lalalala~~~ no poster though. but i'm still happy!

short story :
on the call, steven said to my sis that he asked the korean translator, showing that person the note i gave him, if he can get the single.
and that DUMB translator said : they not good singers
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but micky and junsu voices are nice kay? LOL!
forgive that person since he's a korean? ..


..


this is a long post w/o any pic!! hahah~
tml cip plus go print posters~
yoochun, junsu~ lovin you!
bye~~~
woo~ huixin jus sent me the blogskin she made!!
THANK YOU HUIXIN!!! saranghae!!!

then i put in my another rotting blog!!!
got to post alot dbsk stuff there!!! :D

http://yoochunsarang.blogspot.com
here's the link~
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exam finished le!!! yipee~! LOL!

but suay me~ FROM NEXT TUE ONWARDS, EVERY TUE GOT THE STUPID ENG WORKSHOP!!!
argh~!!! it's like freaking from 2 to 5!!! (if i'm not wrong~)
lucky is the school pay money loh. if not i totally wont go sia.

tired~ didn go out cuz super tired!! but come home jiu dl videos~
jus now met pris and got a mag~ ya with only 3 pages of dbsk!!! argh~!
feel like changing blogsong to holding back the tears, love it man!

tired~
micky yoochun, saranghae~!


Holding Back The Tears - DBSK!!!

A picture that gets smeared in white
And my fragrance that seems to have faded away
All get concealed by the glaring cloud

My heart that has no words
Slowly starts to move my feelings
Those times that slipped through
Are in my hands

I'm holding back the tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me stands
I will not cry

I bring my two hands together again
To a place that will hear it
As I live though these unmemorable times

Though it seems stupid, we’re always together
The pain that I want to let go
Dries the tears that flows through my body

I'm living with my tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me stands
I will not cry

I'm holding back the tears
I run adding to the weight of my faith
To a place that is neither high nor low
Where a different me stands again
With a small smile I can laugh

HAPPY FRIENDS' ANNIVERSARY!!!! to zhangshushu!!! LOL!


gg to fail my lit~
and tml's physics..

saranghae~
i wan go out with xuelian~! though she got jinyao LOL! jkjk~!

i did poem for lit! :D



to everyone..

saranghae!!
around a month to my darling's birthday!!!!!!!

today nv go garett's office~ kind of guilty.
sorry! cuz he sounded so sian on phone~
jus saw their email ytd~ when their performace is ytd.
tink they are so .. fake? they are jus fuckers..
like DVDHEAVEN!! irritating~!
btw shld i get the hug posters for myself..?

edna and chanel are sick! alot of ppl fall sick nowadays~~
muz take care~! esp. DBSK and KAT-TUN! LOL!

hope after mid-years can go out with.. pris, huixin, audrey, edna, chanel, yanshan and prisCHIN!!
totally giving up in elit~ so dead..

i'm hungry.!
muz go grab a bite~
bye!!